Hi Shirley,
I read the title of this blog post & immediately could relate. Your story sounds so similar to my own.

I always felt uncomfortable in my body & I questioned my voice- unsure of my own beliefs & doubtful of my worth.

I can relate to the feeling of wanting to be spiritually fulfilled & also live every moment of this beautiful life to the FULLEST — eat the chocolate, dance to the music, swim in the ocean, walk in the rain.

When I started studying Yoga philosophy & modern neuroscience, the biomechanics of mindfulness, my desires started to make sense. And I started becoming more aware of my tendencies to doubt myself. With awareness, I then began finding the capacity to CREATE feelings of worthiness, feelings of self love, feelings of confidence & joy.

And we all have this creative power — as humans we all have a plastic brain & the ability to choose (repeatedly) how we want to feel & experience the world.

I hope you are able to tap into your own power!!