* ths relationship with my sister is complicated as I am one of the only persons who has challenged her balance(really imbalanced though). She’s put on a lot on her shoulders, mostly shows her nice face(happy/ sometimes sad) to others but when it comes to our close family she lets out all her frustration on us. It did impact my self-condidence and self-love a lot as a child as she was one of my biggest figures of authority and thus did not realuze what she was saying did not reflect who I was really. Noone has ever really told her that she did not have to be so ‘responsible’ (she thought she should be bossy to replace our mother), not even my father as they both supported each other’s balance. I am not holding a grudge against them but I see where my insecuritues came from. Now that I am mature enough to distinguish myself from others, I have started questionning my sister’s behaviour and the fact that she would impose her views on everything in my close family. I on the other hand am more likely to listen to others but realized last year that I should start listening to myself too, and not just the small voice emphasizing all my flaws whether existant or not.