Dear andrew luc:

You wrote that you are “supposed to have found (friends)” – I don’t like “supposed”- who decided you are supposed to .. this or that? Who makes the rules, the timetable of when you are supposed to do or have X or Y?

The friends that abandoned you, going their separate ways, did they abandon you or did they just leave to other places so to have their lives there?

The girl you were fond of and built a deep relation with, would you like to share about it: how did you build a deep relationship with her? How was it deep? What was the nature of the relationship? There might be things there to see better.

anita