If he shows up it will take great strength to turn him down. I don’t think he will ever show up though…regardless, the possibility is in the back of my mind. I feel like any progress I’ve made will be for nil.

I have to constantly remind myself that he NEVER followed through with things. Big things and little things. I was always disappointed with unmet words and that disappointment led to the feeling of hopelessness that he can not keep his word and follow through. Eventually there just wasn’t that expectation and that’s even sadder, to feel hopeless with someone you love. Once I began to feel that, it was the beginning of the end.

Thank you for listening. This is tremendously helpful.