hi there, I understand.. I don’t know if you are into astrology at all, but let me say this: there’s a lot going on in the sky, plus there’s a full moon. I’m not sure if you should at this point chew on the why’s too much, because it sounds like you are emotionally challenged continuously.. but, in this case, just ask yourself what you deserve. how do you want to be treated? this is a very easy question to answer because every good and loving quality you can find in yourself is for someone to match, and no less. I hope this will empower you in this situation. But, there is a lot going on.

Usually what happens in (romantic) relationships is, they help you transform things from previous relationships, which usually has its roots in your own mom/dad dynamics. f.i. if you experienced fear of an abusive parent, but could never speak up for yourself – which is normal, because they are your parent, and you are loyal to playing your part -. What happens is, your body parks feelings like anger, unfairness and disappointment, but they do need to be expressed, it’s natural. Then you meet someone and they will touch on these feelings without knowing or wanting to do so… so the story repeats itself to transform. In your case, you could ask yourself, what does the disappointment relate to, or the putting up with something that doesn’t feel right? Start with big questions. I think, from reading your answers, your gut feeling works fine, but somehow it’s not easy to choose you over him.. and that’s a shame, no one is more important than you. Do you take massages? If not, get them, it’s a wonderful way to disconnect, and let your nervous system balance out, it will calm your mind and maybe give you some answers as well..