Thanks for your reply Cath.

The smaller things or big moments with her, everything hurts. My memories of travelling with her and my family are the worst.

She abandoned me but still continue to be in my life as co worker. Although, I don’t see her regularly but when I do, its like salt rubbing on a wound. It’s like ‘here is the girl who said those things to me and I started to care for her and then she walked all over me.

Another big problem is “If I should have done this or that better” thoughts. The fact is I did everything possible I could and I can’t control others but still my minds wants to torment me.

Sometimes it is slightly easier to sit with pain, sometimes I fall flat.