Hi anita,

I’ve been really busy, so not had time to get on here much. I hope you are well.

I have an important deadline looming and normally I’d be in a pretty fearful place right now. But I’m not; my matador is doing a pretty good job for me here. He has Senor Fearbull on the ropes, to mix a sporting metaphor. I still get the bad feelings of course, but their ability to get to me is massively reduced. Why did it take me so long to start dealing with them? Maybe that is a new thing I could beat myself up over?

That’s a joke, I have no intention of giving myself a hard time over anything new!

I’m posting today as I got some further bad news this morning – just what I needed on top of everything else that is going wrong right now. A few weeks ago all this would have sent me into a downward spin that would have taken weeks, or months, to get out of. Today I watched from the sidelines as things went crashing down – but I did not feel the need to go down with them. I’m a little sad, frustrated, a bit angry, but I’m coping. Things are definitely changing for the better.