Hi Anita,
I think more often than not she is quite caring for me, i mean when she cheated on me that’s another story(which i didn’t see with my eyes). But those caring acts were what she did externally only. Coz if she was truly caring, she wouldn’t cheat.
and more often than not i remember myself being impatience and dismissive towards her. I think my mind is playing tricks with me and i just selectively choose memories out. I want to believe that this is not THAT bad. I want to believe she is not THAT bad.
But the fact is, when i was impatience or ‘mistreated’ her, she escalated the action to cheating, and when I reacted to it and threw tantrums, she escalated it further again by dumping me and getting back to my friend.
You are right.
I just need to remind myself of a more balanced picture.
Thanks

Chau