Dear Anita
I did commit to myself having at least a month of not contacting and reacting to her, or until i am strong enough and sane enough to react to anything that will be presented to me.
I started this obsessive pattern last week and I think i just want to come back for some insight, I know something inside is missing or bubbling that caused me to engage in these things.thanks for shedding some light.
Will update you with my progress, I am hopeful that it will be turning out just fine in a month or two.
Thanks!

Chau