+1 for reading Thinking, Fast & Slow. You reading about psychology is a huge plus. Find a book on emotional intelligence as well.

I was going to give you some dating advice, then I realized this wasn’t the problem.

Honestly, yes, i kind of take it personally when i get ignored, becuase it happens too many times.. I get anxiety sometimes when i do not get replies, especially when its people i chatted with for abit or people i know, though the anxiety i feel now isnt much worse as compared to last time.

You sound like old me, so let me speed up your growth here with some knowledge bombs:
1) It sounds like you lost something, and now you’re trying to get it back. Why are you searching for love?
2) You’re doing so at the wrong stage of the game. Love is an intimate thing. At what stage of the game can you become intimate? Think one-on-one conversations (not over text).
3) The bigger point: If you found love, will this make you happy and ease your anxiety?

From my personal experience, following through all this will amplify your anxiety because of three things: 1) you haven’t found a solution or really understand your emotions and what triggers them, 2) you will feed your own anxiety if what you’re doing is successful because you confirm your emotional reaction, and 3) your well-being will be reliant on an external source you cannot possibly control. This is extremely risky

No advice here, but take in the information/insights above. Let us know what you’re going to do next. Also, check out how Anita was asking you all these questions earlier. How we’re brought up affects who we are today.

We can talk about dating and dating apps in a bit 😛

P.S. I went through the same emotional turmoil when I lived in Bangkok for 3 months (recently). I got out of this cycle thanks to a friend of mine; I uninstalled my dating app and was able to move on with my life once I understood 1) what was going on, and 2) what I really want.