Dear Gigi:

We love our mothers no matter what- you do and your boyfriend does. Still wanting their approval, their love NO MATTER who they are. No matter how unloving and even cruel, we have that soft spot for them, feeling sorry for them. It is natural for a child but then when we become adults, unloved by the mother, we keep longing for it, keep trying. This is your difficulty, still reaching out to her with your love, and your love expressed in the post above is that feeling sorry for her.

Your boyfriend will keep trying with his mother more so because she didn’t contact him on his birthday. Interesting you get angry at him for reaching out to her, while you do the same, reaching out to your mother your way.

I am just saying, I did it. Fifty years of did-it. Brought me nothing but misery.

The book, novel, maybe a movie, that is a huge project. Is there a writing group where you are, individuals reading samples from each other’s writings, I belonged to one but quit. It is a huge project.

Try the sparkling non alcoholic beverage thing. At times I drank beet juice that looked just like wine. Chilled, sweetened beet juice. But you may barf at the idea. Bed time getting closer. I sure hope you feel better soon. And consider that first chapter.

anita