@anita

I talked to my father, and he said he won’t pay for me to live on my own, which frustrates me. I’m not sure he understands why I’m so angry with my mother, even though I told him why. I’m not sure he can comprehend it.

There are all sorts of programs in my area to help people who need help getting out and starting their own lives. I will talk to my therapist about it. One of my friends has the help of one of those programs, and she is living on her own and has a job now.

I think my goal is to move out from my mother by the end of the year, if not sooner, so the healing can continue. These last couple days I’ve felt much calmer than in the last 3 years, since I came out as a lesbian which was a big part of me I was hiding. Even my dad has noticed it.

My mother doesn’t want me to “advertise” that I like girls, by wearing rainbow accessories, but I want to and I am going to. It’s part of who I am. I shouldn’t be ashamed of it, just like I’m creative.