Thanks again anita, nan 🙂
Nan, to answer your questions. ?
I did leave twice before. In may 2014 and came back here 10 days later
I left again in august the same year and came back a a week later.
I stayed with the same friend, who I called the other night

But since my wife got involved, she called the police and bluffed a restraining order against him. So now this friend was my only resource, and my wife took that away 🙁

I came back the first time because she” threatened” me
The second time because she “convinced” me things would be different, better.

Im still technically married, but as people, I broke up with her.
But we are living together

Its technically abusive verbally emotionally psychologically.. yet when its not she acts like were “together”
Giving kisses, trying to make me laugh, demands we sleep in the same bed every night, acts like shes “gonna help me get a job and a place”

So… should I buy this, or cut n run.. like I said, I have little resources.. and dc I can justify this situation, even though truly it is NOT what I want