After reading what you said, I understood the big difference between me and my friend. She hates arguing so much and would say I am sorry just so the person can forgive them. I do say I am sorry when I argue but at the same time,I make sure I at least say how I feel or what I want. I also realized that she still has a very hard time saying no to people and that she cant stand up for herself. After being bullied, I have been saying more what I want and how I feel( but I also think about it first before doing) I am also realizing that anytime we argue, she rarely tells me how she truly feels about my actions. So I think that she is afraid of me getting angry and taking it out on her again. Better yet, I think she is still afraid of me leaving her. I have taken care of my anger issues because I took it out on her when her bf came to visit her because I felt replaced. Since then, i have been going for help to deal with my anger. One time she broke down in the bathroom. We barely spoken to each other over a year ago because ever since her friend of 6 years broke up with her bf, she took all of her time! I felt abandoned and felt the distance and jealous of her friend. That was when I started to develop anger issues when I was 17 years old. I sent her a text and it sounded like i didn’t want to be her friend anymore.(It was a misunderstanding) She came to me crying and said that she wanted to still be my friend and that she was sorry for hurting me. I felt so ashamed and hated myself for making her cry, and I apologized to her a lot. We forgave each other,but her friend of 6 years messaged me saying I am just someone who lives in america and that I have been friends with Molly for 1 year while I have been friends with her for 5 years and that I was the one who helped molly go back to school. (Molly told me I was the main reason for her going back to school,because I showed her so much love and that I believed in her and that she is at her happiest when she is with me). As I am writing this, I am beginning to understand that I have no reason to be jealous of her friend of 6 years nor her bf. It is just having a friend who lives in a different country can be difficult from time to time. So sometimes I can’t help but get jealous when her friend of 6 years gets to hang out with her every single day and go to the same school along with her bf who gets to travel to Scotland or have his parents meet Molly taking time from me. I do spend time with my other friends. It is also not fair that her bf is saying stuff like I want to live with you knowing that people can change. Molly still wants me in her life,so how can I be in her life when he wants to spend every single minute with her? If we were in our late 20s, I would understand her getting married and not talking to her a lot. But he wants to spend every minute with her. So i can’t help but wish that he would get out of her life for good. The moment his ex cheated on him, he just wants to spend every minute with him and it annoys me so much that she does not know how to balance her time. I even have some other best friends who still find the time to want to talk to me and actually spend more than 10 minutes to want to talk to me. She knows how much Ive missed her, she always says Yeah I know. but I want to tell her no you don’t if not we wouldn’t be having this argument. I think that I expect too much from her to stay in my life. But I usually get like this when I rarely talk to her because it hurts when I miss her and feel that is very unfair that they get to spend more time with her. I appreciate you reading this 🙂