you seem to be on the right track, it was a 7 year relationship, you’re bound to feel numb, lonely, and sad after it ends. meditation and journalling can help you work through the emotions. if you really don’t feel the meditation is ‘clicking’ you could always try a guided meditation or two [there’s a bunch on youtube] also consider a cleanse of the old. you need to release the old to find the new, and you seem to be doing just that. i would suggest in the times of loneliness [even when not] have someone to talk to, or hang out with friends and family. perhaps join a class to have an activity to look forward to. keep on at your own pace, you’ll be just fine.