Dear xenopustex:

You grew up unloved, considered an imposition. What you needed was one grown up to welcome you to their world. And there was none. Hence the “deep seated sense of loneliness”

There is very little love in this world. And no matter how hard we try to live well without love, we fail. We are born to reach out for love. It is the nature we are born with. So when you feel silly to be feel emotional about a woman smiling at you, it is you feeling silly for being human.

Many smiles are faked, lies are told, manipulations, cruelty, violence- everywhere. But all you need is just that one woman whose smile to you will be genuine, not aimed at getting something from you but simply because she is happy that you are in her world; a trustworthy woman who will love you as you are, not much finesse require, no pretending on your part- just you, as you are.

And it is so very possible for you. I would like it to happen in your life and soon enough.

anita