I guess that you could say it is both. You see all sorts of strange bipedal organisms out here. Quality professional women are very rare out here. The town has a really bad reputation. We don’t attract many professionals of either sex, but quality women seem to really be scared of it out here.

Next as a public sector attorney, there are some practical considerations. That gal who lit up when she saw me (despite me not looking me best that day) and who I was interested in, turned out to be with the press out here… Sigh. Went from feeling great about possibly starting an acquaintanceship to walking away feeling really depressed.

Having a hard time believing that this woman is out there, or at least out here. I see couples wandering around and ask myself, how the heck did they ever find each other?

Then, not sure that even if I did find that one woman, she’d be interested. Sort of that glasses wearing geek. Not flashy. Not terribly adventurous. Men in my family grey early, and the stress of the job certainly doesn’t help with that. From a physically attractive standpoint, I ain’t it.

Not sure how to communicate things like honesty, fidelity, etc. without sounding/looking silly, or sounding like the stuff that probably gets told on a daily basis. Surely, there has to be some value in a woman not having to worry about whether or not her partner is faithful. In not having to worry about what her partner may be bringing home. The thing is, communicating it so that it is believed by the other side.

One of the things that I have been doing is making myself go out and interact with others each day. Have been getting better at social interactions.

Interesting take on belief. I believe in how nature functions, at many levels. That belief stops when I look at humans. We aren’t like most other things in nature.

Overall, guess it’s both. Would absolutely love to have a relationship in my life by the end of August. what is the best way to replace a belief that it ain’t never got to happen with a belief that this is possible?