Thank you anita and Inky for taking the time to answer my question! I really do appreciate it.

Inky: I’m so sorry you had to go through a similar experience. You’re kind to say I’m more “evolved”, but I assure you that’s not the case. While I did go back to the temple (and on the trip we had scheduled, just by myself), it wasn’t always necessarily out of a place of strength, but sometimes more from a fear of regret. (By the way, I don’t think anyone should blame themselves for avoiding a place that brings back painful memories. We all heal in our own ways!)

anita: You are right that all of this, difficult as it may be, is a huge opportunity to grow and learn. I did scare him off with my tears, and it showed me how I still have a ways to go in learning to control my emotions and show more equanimity when I’m upset.