That is quite right, Anita. This is what makes me feel so bad and ashamed of myself. Even my friends reminded me… she already had given me a special place in her life that nobody else could take. If I had just been satisfied with it, she would still be with me. Hell, she even told me she rarely messages a good morning/night to her cousin brother while we talked nearly the whole day. I don’t know what the hell is my problem then. Then I think, even if I remained satisfied for now… what when in the future, I got news of her getting married. Whatever is happening now, most likely would have happened then.

I’ve finished my message draft. Shall I post it here or elsewhere?