Dear marykeat:

Of all my behaviors that need healing, my disordered eating is the most difficult. I too have a great fear of gaining weight, eating too much. The feeling of fullness scares me. The thought of gaining weight scares me. I no longer weigh myself because the thought of weighing (used to do daily and record daily) scares me. I wear one size fit all clothes because the feeling of clothes being tight scare me. I am making progress though. It takes extreme patience all through the day, being mindful and learning that I can handle strong emotions without focusing on the “solution”- keep myself thin and everything will be okay.

Would be glad to continue communicating about this difficult topic. There is hope, there really is!

anita