Yes, I need to pull that band-aid off quickly. The reason I thought it might be asked, was that it came into my head, that if that was questioned, would I back down and keep the lie going? Or would I say “No, I don’t love you anymore and haven’t for awhile”, and wait for the sh— storm to happen. His M.O. has always been to be in a public place, so it suppresses any real reactions from me. Was just thinking what if that occurred? I will keep that Mona LIsa smile going, as I am well-practiced in that. I have all the practical things in place, just need to get over the next hurdle of college placement, come home, and make the concrete plan of when and how. Thank you for your thoughts! Read over again the Bridges of Madison County, and Eat, Pray, Love again. Being mindful and forcing myself to stop negative thoughts that invoke fear. Getting better at it! One of the good things is that R-1 is calm, loving and never pushing. He states to me that I will KNOW, when the time comes.