And now my boyfriend of the past 1.5 years has decided that we need time apart to focus on ourselves. I think he may be right and rationally I know that he and I are not right for each other, but why is it so hard to break up even if you know it has to happen??? I feel like it must be the feeling of rejection? He knows that all I need is for him to open up to me more and be more supportive but he just isn’t willing to do that so of course I tell myself it must be because I’M JUST NOT WORTH IT. I’m pretty devastated right now and want to crawl out of my skin. It’s like trying to squeeze blood from a turnip. I knew early on in our relationship that there was something off. But I just went with it anyway, hoping that it would change as feelings developed. How foolish. At 32 I have a string of failed relationships and I just wonder if I am capable of having a real and lasting connection with anyone ever. What am I doing so wrong.