Dear Anita,
You indeed do have a point. But I’ve been practising for a month and I don’t really see results…which is frustrating…it seem like work…doesn’t feel like playing…when I do something I love shouldn’t that feel like play time ? I feel I’m grinding now and it feels awful. Shouldn’t I be open to take all the hits if I really want this ? Shouldn’t I be okay with the negative thoughts or shouldn’t they just disappear? How can I know I’m on the right track ? How do I know I am just wasting my time? I’ve got a life to live and I want to impact the world with something………….I feel so lost and those doubtful thoughts never stop….I want them to stop…I meditate and the moment I am done they come again and again and again and again ………. help …..I really need someone to help me….but I’m kinda aware that I have to solve this on my own and it makes it even scarier.