Dear Anita,

First of all, thank you for your reply. I guess it could be both.

For example, I have some hard beliefs in which I put values. I made my beliefs my lifestyle (i.e. Vegetarism, against objectifying women, etc.) If I do not like something, I will probably boycott what I can boycott. I’m probably activist in my own way. We talked about them even before we met, he told me he was agreeing, that he also thinks that way and I believe him. I gave him the benefit of the doubt.
Although, he usually exposed what he did wrong or what he did that contradict what he believe in. He is pretty honest on these, though. I understand that for him, it is evolving. He is evolving step by step to be more consistent in his life. He said that I was a major factor of his awareness and seeing life on a different angle. I was happy to inspire someone.
I found out that some of these things happened really recently though, which feels like he was lying to me. However, these things aren’t really big/major, I can acknowledge that as well. That is why I can feel a bit ridiculous right now; if I could write it in a colorful manner, it feels like my wounds are fragile, bleeding, because I have someone that feels right and genuine but who also trigger my own beliefs. Then, the smallest thing can shake my trust and make me doubt.