Dear helleia:

It reads to me from reading your posts that there are a few very simple things that you need to see, figuratively. There are a few things about your life so far, earlier life, that you need to see. Problem is, as I see it, that your eyes are closed to these few simple things, so you stumble in the dark, looking here and there, getting confused with a thousand things.

Getting confused because you don’t see the few very simple things.

Thing is, seeing those few simple things is going to make you feel very uncomfortable, distressed.

In what venue will you open your eyes to see those things? Someplace where you feel safe. If it is done here, online, than this is going to be more Real, as in real life, than anything and anywhere else.

If you do turn the light on those few simple things, I will attentively read and empathetically reply to you every time you post.

anita