Dear helleia:

In your original post on this thread you wrote: “I’ve been feeling such strong yearning and loneliness.
…I do come into contact with nice people but always feel that something is missing.”

This is how I see your situation, since childhood and on: in the context of your family: your parents and your siblings, you were very much alone and lonely. You suffered from the absence of quality interactions with your parents and siblings. In other words, you suffered from … social neglect, social isolation.

In fifth grade you cried loudly in front of your peers, in front of others, like a child does and unlike most (or all) of your peers (same age students in school). This is because you didn’t develop socially as much as they did. You didn’t have the interactions a child needs to mature.

You realize that social interactions is what you need and this is why you are here, on this website. And I agree with you: social interactions is exactly what you need. You will continue the progress you already made when you interact: you will learn more and more about yourself and become more and more comfortable in your own skin. You will be less and less confused and more organized.

Take advantage of every opportunity to interact with decent people, people who are respectful of you. Make those interaction work for you, by seeing to it that these interactions improve your mental health, lessen (not increase) your confusion. Talk with others about your feelings, experience of life in simple terms, a little at a time so to not overwhelm the listener and so that he/she can respond to you with their experience. In so doing you will find out how we, humans, share so much of the same thinking and feelings.

And so, the “Trying New Things” I am recommending is Trying More Interactions.

Post here anytime and I will reply to you, every time.

anita