Dear tinysparkofhope:

I am afraid I am quite lost in trying to understand what happened. I still want to understand though. I will be typing-as-I-think: it was a huge company, this means random things happen, things that don’t make sense as they would in a small, organized company. Downsizing is business as usual in big companies.

You did a lot of work for co workers who took advantage of the fact that they could excuse themselves and give you the work to do. Why would they turn against you then. If you did their work again and again, seems to me they would want you to stay and not spread a rumor that you are not doing a good job.

There is something you missed in the dynamic there: maybe you were too busy working till 11 pm, doing their job that you missed something significant? Maybe you were so tired from overwork that your work suffered? I don’t know.

I understand high school like cliques. But again, if you did others’ work, it seems to me that those others would be interested in not jeopardizing your position with the boss/es.

I wonder: weren’t you resentful, doing others’ work till late at night while they went home early? Did you confront those co workers? Did you expressed your (understandable) anger at being used to anyone at the company?

Will be back at the computer tomorrow morning (in ten hours or so). If there is anything you can clarify for me about my thoughts here, or add, please do.

anita