Hi VJ

I am truly very grateful for your input on all this. It look me quite a while to ponder what you have written and you did a great thing – got me excited about getting up and keep trying again. In fact getting it off my chest in the first place, not just to my dearest friends but to complete strangers online is a surprisingly emotionally releasing thing to do. I now am encouraged to pay it forward and help others and if i can, people on this Forum with what i have learnt (maybe all that money hasn’t been wasted, just because i cannot make them work for me, doesn’t meant it wouldn’t work for others). Thank you very much for your insight it is refreshing to hear about the law of attraction/law of opposition from another perspective and to realize,in deed the world is full of surprises and the challenges are never-ending but so are the rewards. Just hope i can keep the fear of poverty at bay, it is going to be hard but i will try.

hope to keep you updated with progress!

Thanks again for your long replies and time out to help me with this.