Hey Hellaia,

You sound like you’re quite hard on yourself. Maybe even when you don’t feel “weak”. All these things you ought to be doing, and things you’re trying, and things you have to do…?

You’re going to have good days and bad days. Things that help me when I’m feeling weak include:

– Remind myself I often feel really bad, but then the next day or even later the same day I feel ok again
– Stop trying to “fix” it. I can work on ideas to fix things when I’m feeling generally ok, not when I feel like dirt
– Do a small thing that feels productive, but not too much to handle
– Listen to rain (I have recordings)
– List things that are good or that I enjoy
– And, mostly, just accept that I feel bad and I don’t have to feel good right now even though it hurts to feel bad.

I hope that’s helpful to you. Go easy on yourself. You’re doing the best you can.