Dear Ben:

Your pain is loud and clear. You gave up a lifetime dream (I remember previous threads, months ago)- and you are stuck in a job you dislike. The old dream is gone and there is nothing to replace that passion, the purpose you had.

This guy reminds you again and again your lost dream. He is living YOUR dream, you wrote. You are not. You are grieving the loss of your dream, I am thinking.

If so, it will take grieving the loss- accepting that indeed that dream is gone and will not become reality. It is gone and over with. This will be a process and once you have done enough, to accept it is gone and let go of the attachment you still have to that dream, then you will not suffer anymore.

anita