Dear nervousbat:

you were severely bullied and understandably you are still afraid to be bullied, on guard, self conscious, fast to interpret another’s facial expressions as disapproval (to potentially lead to bullying).

I can very much relate.

It took me a whole lot of work in the last five years to make the progress I have made, starting with my very first experience with a competent, empathetic psychotherapist and continuing on my own, increasing my insight and using the skills I learned (mainly Mindfulness) to continue my healing.

And healing is what it takes. Are you willing and able to attend psychotherapy with a competent therapist?

anita