Anita,

Yes. He has not done anything as you said, no regrets or no feelings, coz, he thinks, that’s the way, it should be, even now, he is very careful,to make sure, i dont’ make any mistakes and keeps micromanaging me once in a while, trying to know about my whereabouts when, im late to home or out with friends on a weekend.

he is not a person to discuss about anything openly, the kind of relationship or caring or nurturing between a father and a son, and he is not that type…

Also, I cannot leave him, until he goes away forever, since our cultural and social setup doesn’t work that way and I’m very emotionally attached to my parents,even though, I knew, I should’ve been bought up in a much better way, but that’s all they knew at their time, getting a good name in the society and in front of relatives to be proud of, and getting into better studies and careers.. I’m not sure, if I can blame them for it…

Being the only son, and first male child of the family, they had lot of expectations on me, which I didn’t fulfill almost 90% of it, infact, everything stumbled because of those expectations only and because of my anger towards those expectations, that, I just did exactly the opposite of, whatever was expected out of me…