Dear pongo:

One’s childhood experience forms one’s brain, so the past doesn’t … go away as we become adults. The teacher that bullied you- him being an adult and his educational background did not change his own past and so he passed on the bullying to you. And as you went through life, it is your past that continued to be your reality.

There is only one way to proceed, I strongly believe, and that is doing healing work in psychotherapy with a competent, empathetic, trustworthy therapist. That would take time. You are 40. I attended my first competent therapy at 50. It’s been over five years, much progress made and more to be made. It requires, for me, extreme patience with myself and with the process.

What it comes down to is weakening physiological connections (neuropathways) in the brain and making new ones. It takes time and that extreme patience I mentioned.

And then, with weakened old neuropathways and the creation of new ones, you will, over time, be able to experience a different kind of life.

Post anytime.

anita