Thanks LBNL,

To be honest, I don’t think I will feel much different in a few months. This experience of mine has been getting progressively worse. I am so sad. I grieve for life as it used to be. I cry every day. I never used to do that. Never. I have been through too much in my life, and I am tired now. If someone offered me euthanasia I would take it. There are family and friend around me yet I feel completely isolated and spaced out. I am questioning my existence all the time. I never did that before. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up again.

Best wishes.