Dear allicia:

In the post before last you considered completing your degree in architecture because you were afraid, when you posted that. Then when you wrote your last post you realized you didn’t make a decision made when calm, but instead, a decision fueled by fear.

Your distress is significant and ongoing. I think you are stuck in an intensely felt obligation to please your father/ family/ society. I wish you could take a break from school and attend competent psychotherapy where in a safe environment, with a trustworthy, empathetic therapist, you can make your decision.

Is there anyone within your family who will listen to you, attend to you in your distress and help you take the break and attend competent therapy? Someone in your family who believes that your mental health is more important than a degree, time, societal-timeline-expectations?

anita