Hi there.

I feel that having similar experience I can advise you that for your age you seem quite mature knowing what bothering you your brave attitude showing that you’re trying to find the solution.

Tiny buddha is a good place to reach for help. BIG THANKS TO ADMIN.

Look like your have three options
1. Leave it all as it is , everything will work out somehow. .
2. Let the current state drag you down – blame everyone and hate everything
3. Take advantage of it and think of it as a lesson to work on yourself only.
Life Lessons:

People play power games as most of them seek to exercise a certain degree of control over other people (be it at work or in social life)

Progress is more important than success and the key for unending progress is learning. Learn as much as you can as fast as you can from as many sources as you can.

Stay away from being too judgemental, being judgemental adds rigidity to your mind making it permanently incompatible to grow and expand. Everyone you interact with and everything that happens with you can be used as a learning device. Pick the best from everyone and everything. My friends teach me how to love and have fun, while my enemies teach me how to stay tough & strategize

If you are not sure what are your core talents/strengths/competencies try out different things until you do that ONE thing which excites your spirit – That is the key for unleashing your potential.

Your greatest or perhaps the only true enemy is Fear. It puts a limit on your ideas, actions and decisions. Fear paralyzes you mentally and emotionally. Get rid of it by youtube relaxing meditation – headphones is a must!

And don’t ever give up.

Love Xxx