Thank you Anita for your input and advice.

Your intention was very clear in speaking about your therapist, rest assured:) I was just thinking out loud, on the off chance that I could see him. Because as you obviously know, it is very hard to find a good, committed therapist. I thought mine was, but now I am not so sure anymore.

I agree with you, I always wanted to have a diagnosis because I believe it does help, especially with an issue such as ROCD which is by nature very misleading and tricky – you’re not always sure if you actually have a problem or not. But it seems that Freudian therapists are not too keen on diagnoses, or at least not too keen on sharing them with their patients. They seem to think it is bad and limiting to “label”. And it probably is for some people, but not for me.

You sharing your experience with me is very valuable to me and I really appreciate it, thanks again. I will try to manage the new “spike” as well as I can for now, and give a serious thought to how I want to proceed with my therapist. I will probably start by confronting him about the present state of the therapy, and try to look into other options in parallel.
Will update here if there’s anything new.

Midnight