Thank you everyone for responding.

I have come to accept that these ex-friends didn’t really behave as friends then and I should move on. But, the frequent dreams about them and the difficulty making new friends (friendships are easier when we are young) makes me constantly sad and difficult to move on. I know I should just tell myself that things change and that I should learn to make the best out of my otherwise perfect life.

I also want to share with you all that I have been doing good in other aspects of my life. I got a Masters degree after that and a job that I really like. I have grown from the “just-fun” unfocused person into a more focused person. I spend my time learning about important things and on my career. But I feel that I am limiting my social life. I don’t need many friends like before. But, I don’t want to be the shy person with low self esteem and who cannot talk to people. I know I can be better. But, for some reason, I am not. I want to be the socially comfortable person and I want to be able to trust people more (which I was before this incident). I have no friends right now and that makes me sad!

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