Dear Trod811

Thanks for your message. I does help to hear that you are not alone in the midst of all of this. I have good days and then crushing bad days. Today has been a mix. I have been so scared of being alone that I decided to go for it this weekend. Keeping busy is great but it also covers up the pain. Today- two lots of yoga, cleaning and gardening. It has been nice but I miss him so much and then feel guilty because I know I should not.
It would be so easy to go out and meet another person to fill the void and I am filled with worries about my future. But….I am hoping that if I keep with the pain and loss and keep doing positive things that I will ease into a better sense of self and peace.
I’m coming off a drug and I want it so bad but I know that if I went back there it would destroy me even more.
I hope you are ok x