phantom2013

Welcome to TinyBuddha forums, I hope you will enjoy it here and I hope you will benefit from the advice and wisdom from the many wonderful souls I have encountered here, and I hope I am able to help out.

I think I can relate to your dilemma – feeling judged and scrutinised by other people (including my family members). I’m not saying I no longer doubt myself or I have everything together because I don’t but it’s taken me 25 years to realise that it’s my life, nobody else’s and it’s not my responsibility to make other people happy or fulfilling their expectations of what it is I should do/be.

You are NOT responsible for anybody else’s feelings or expectations. It is not your purpose in life to win anybody else’s approval, except your own. You are not your cousins, and you are doing the best that you can. Everybody has their own strengths and weaknesses. You are allowed to not be perfect and it’s okay to not be okay, we are only human. Seek your own happiness. You focus on you.

What subject are you studying at college? What were you passionate about before you started college? You say you love your guinea pigs – could you perhaps find something to do involving caring for animals?

Are you perhaps able to seek the help of a counsellor? I daresay they should have a confidential counselling service available to students at the college you attend.

I hope this helps.

Take care and feel free to post more

Joe