Dear Anita,
Thank you for asking these specific questions to me. It helps me think more deeply into a specific area. I posted about my situation on some other websites too, and I only got harsh(but probably true) replies which made me feel even worse than I did before.
If I’m super lucky and get a second chance with him, I don’t think and I won’t get mad just because I don’t like that things are not my way. Even if I do get angry, I will choose to take a short moment to breathe and think of it in his perspective instead of expressing my anger right away and saying mean things.
People tell me it’s over and I should leave him alone for god’s sake and that I don’t deserve a second chance and he’s not going to give me one. But because I’m now aware of what I have to fix(I started working on them) and because I will be finally closer to where he lives, I just want to ask for that second chance even though I know it’s very unlikely to happen.
Mountaindew
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 