Hi
Chau,

I think you are just carrying the weight of insecurity with you as you also mentioned.Imagine that you are obliged to carry some weight all the time. You may then not be able to sleep, walk or talk properly .
Insecurity is one such burden, which the soul is unable to carry for long.
We human beings always crave for what we don’t have. We thirst for water if the water content in our body gets deficient. We crave for food when the body needs more energy and nutrition.
Just let go of her if she has already moved on.
Nothing is perfect. Not our days, not our friends or loved ones, not even us!
Just allow yourself and her to be real.
Realise all the things you could have done for yourself and all the things you want to do for yourself and be more attuned with your desires and goals .

mishika