Seaisland is correct in many regards. I do have a tendency to ignore suggestions, especially the more upset I am. Perhaps it ties in with the history of input being that I was wrong for doing what I was doing no matter what I was doing.

Kath is correct that I do tend to have a lot of resentment. A good part of that comes from winding up covering for other people while they are more interested in doing other things. Now, eight years later, I don’t have many relationships. Angry at myself for putting so much time/effort into stuff when it ultimately does not appear to matter.