Thank you for all the comments. I do have hope and I know it’s not over yet. I also know I have a lot of work to do on myself and I am getting support for that now. Reading the responses you have all provided has also helped me so much. Now that I am getting help I don’t feel as alone as before. I feel like I finally have some much needed support! I will focus on the good in my life right now, because their is still a lot of good, and I will take it day by day. I’ll spend lots of time with my kids and just live in the moment. Whatever happens happens, but I still do have hope. Jessi, I agree my marriage is worth saving! Thanks again for the support. James