I figured I needed to give you an update on what happened. So I decided to text her if she wants to go for a coffee soon.

Me: Want to have coffee soon?
Her: Hey pat are you at work?
Me: 11-4, leaving soon
Her: Oh kay
Her: How about I call you after 4?
Me: Sure
Her: Well do coffee another time..too much going on my days off right now
Her: Cool
Me: Hope things are ok
Her: Me and my daughter are going to walk around this lake this afternoon
Her: Its frozen apparently
Her: Yep..alls good
Her: Moving into my daughters room lol
Me: Nice, have fun doing that
Her: Ok ttyl then 🙂
Me: Btw let’s not talk about my depression, I don’t really wanna talk about it anymore. I got things I rather talk to you about instead.
Her: Sounds good..but last thing ill suggest is the book I’m reading now..Wow. It is amazing. That is all..I love you, i’m sorry, please forgive me, thank you! (the name of the book)
Her: Thanks for being a friend
Her: I’ll lend it to you soon. Its not very long. I believe I will find peace soon, getting closer xo
Her: Ok later homie
Me: I’m honoured to be your friend, so thanks for being in my life
Her: (( <3 ))
Her: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZTViougNWKo
Her: For clarity
Me: Cool thanks, i’ll check it out and get back to you
Me: If you’re ever stressed and need someone to talk to even for 5 minutes my phones always open. Thought i’d get that out, have a great night

We talked for 21 minutes, she had to eat dinner and drive her daughter to dance class and I had to eat dinner so I told her I had to go and eat dinner. We talked about her and her pain she’s having that’s driving her crazy, and keeps obsessing about it doing yoga and other things. The pain..well more stiffness in her chest but it’s driving her crazy. She wants to have dinner with us on her day off but she’s going through all this. I asked her what her dreams are and that I want to know you better, she just wants to be a simple girl living in the country tending to her garden, working part time, making a profit from her garden with her family. Her daughter is driving her a little crazy keeps making her go out and get things for her, so she just finds a spot and repeats “I love you, i’m sorry, please forgive me, thank you” in her head and calms her down a little. We went deep into the conversation. She also wants to go deep into a spiritual life with a little Buddhism, living a minimal life. Told me she wants me to be a compassionate loving person to everyone. To forgive them, love them, don’t get mad at their mistakes, etc. I said “damn that’s going to be hard”. Ho’oponopono found her at the right time in her life. Then when we were going to hang up I told her I would phone her in a few weeks when things hopefully settle down for her, she said she will phone me again before those few weeks and message me aswell.

Maybe i’ll just jump into this before I try ending my life…I need something to atleast give me a chance.