Dear blkhwkdwn1:

There will be a couple of changes in our communication here.

1. If you mention again your intent to end your life, that is to commit suicide, in a future post, I will not reply. I am not a professional, and am no qualified to handle expressed suicide intent. Whenever you contemplate suicide, please call a suicide hot line or check yourself into a hospital.

2. I have let you lead me on this thread since September. Doesn’t seem like I was helpful to you. Therefore, I will now take leadership of this thread. I will do so by asking you a question and expect you answer it next post. My question is: why do you feel that you deserve to suffer?

anita