Hi anita,

This job I’m at now is “better than nothing” because I’m scared of applying for jobs for fear of rejection and I don’t have confidence in myself. Another sub reason is that I’m not motivated (a more blunt word would be lazy) to put in the effort for job searching. Unless the job is in the bag, but all it needs is for to submit a formal resume/application. This mindset has been in me too – and it is not helping me in my job, which is sales – I’m reluctant to do the things required to get a lead – cold emails, cold calls unless I know for sure the deal is already given to me. I used to have a more helpful mindset that rejection is part and parcel of this job, and it will train me to be a better person but not recently.

I think the console was probably the only thing that was promised and not delivered. Maybe since then, I have not really asked for anything because either I get shut down or subconsciously I just think it’s no use asking for something.

daniel