Hi Anita,

It’s been a while..:)
that woman I was talking about, things are going very well. I haven’t been on 5 dates in a long time. I’m keeping it one day at a time…:)
Now, as far as my mother is concerned, We had a huge blow out yesterday. She texted me two within 5 minutes, and she was getting angry with me, (as usual). I was on my way to DJ a wine event, and it threw me in a tissy. I texted her back, saying I can’t take it anymore, and I don’t want to talk to her, period. It was a mean text(s), but I feel glad that I let out my feelings. It was like the talk I had with her, but on steroids. It messed with me all night and I had hard a hard time DJ’ing and I stil feel the dark cloud hanging over me this morning. Yes, I need to get out of here, but I have nowhere to go. Going to shelter (if they let me in), I think would make me more depressed. I’m upset with myself that I choose not to find a job for myself and take care of my responsibilities. I’m trying not to get made at myself, but it’s challenging. I told my mother not to speak to me at all. She has a big birthday party this Saturday and I told her to write me a list of things to do for the party so I don’t have to talk to her, and get a million texts till the party.

She and I want me to move, but I just can’t figure out how to do it. This is upsetting me more and more and I get triggered much easily now that I confronted her. I truly don’t want anything to do with her. I almost feel bad, but she told me that she won’t change.
I can’t even get better as long as I’m staying here. If I move out, it will be so expensive.

Thank you Anita!