@Anita and @Inky – thank you for your kind words and for taking the time to read my post.

You are both very right – I need to focus on enjoying and making the most of my time here on Earth as a mother , for although these circumstances may seem overwhelming now – they are not permanent. There will come a time when they are complete and I must acknowledge this fact and see the big picture and not focus on the small pieces that I think are a part of my life forevermore – for they are precious and fleeting.

I will try my best to incorporate art and creating into my life – but also force myself to change my perspective on this time in my life which is not the absence of creating – but the nurturing of my most precious creations of all – my children.

I understand that I am also grieving and need to also put this fact in the forefront of my mind – so that when I feel the fire rising inside I can subdue it wil understanding for myself.

Miigwetch (thank you) very much. Your words are light energy passing to me and it was your choice to pass this to me – and I thank you for it.