Hi Dee,

You seem to be in a pickle. Actually, lets me honest, you´re going through hell. Feeling that your life is slipping through your fingers and you have no control what so ever over your being, your mind, your body and your thoughts. I don´t know an addiction to meth, but I know a hard-core addiction to smoking and my ex-boyfriend. Unlike meth, smoking is socially allowed and even if its expensive it doesnt compare to meth. My addiction to my boyfriend is not even visible, but it makes me want to die as well. Not being able to see him, feel him and be with him. Its love, but love can be a drug as well. And when you can´t get your fix its unberable. Unfortunately for me he´s not for sale, or I would have done the same thing you did, I would have sold my laptop, my camera and gotten into debt just to be with him.

So I know, way different levels. Nevertheless, I know adiction. I know the incapacity of not being able to control it, of letting it have a life of its own.

I´m sorry, I´m sorry you´re struggling so much.I´m sorry you´re going through this. We´re all in the same hell just different devils. However, I do agree with the endless things I´ve read. We HOLD THE POWER, but our minds are so weak that we we´ve let them govern our lives.

I can´t really give you advise as to how to quit meth and get your life together. Because I find my self in the same situation, just different drug. The only thing I can offer you is my support. If you need someone to vent with write at yumiyumimaria@gmail.com